Thought of the Morning

Depression loves to seep in when you actually need it to. You may not realize it but it is a cleanser.

It Creeps...

My head is spinning currently. A twitch that has taken over my eye. No word from the significant other. Just pure torment. Sometimes it seems to be the road I always fall on. This deep rooted depression ensnares me and takes away all breath. Left to fend for myself with not a inch of life left in me. Don't worry, I will be fine. Always am. It is the art of learning to deal with things by yourself. I can't lie, I would love to hear her voice right now...but I am just a nuisance to people. I guess this move will just let people not worry as much about me. More about you my friends, more about you. I am going to stop now.

-jairo

Thought of the Afternoon

...it's silent...

Thought of the Morning

If I left I would not be missed...

What To Do?

Lashing out has its repercussions. Anger causes anger, which in turn causes problems with other parts of your life. I am so mad I am about to break many things...

-jairo

Too Stressed For You

Only a few more weeks left till I am off to Boston. Still no place in sight. I am cutting it close and do not know if I will find a place or not. My eye has been twitching with stress for the past few days. I need to take more deep breaths in my life. Heh! Want to be my roommate dear people? No!? Damn. Maybe I will have a roommate or my own place when the time comes. It might also be the waiting to actually find out if I will have a roommate or my own place to dwell.

So much work this week, with the other ICS out on vacation I am handling everything. I need to be more authoritative when exuding the lead role. I guess my "having fun nature" does not amalgamate well. We'll see if I can make it work somehow.

I have not written anything since what you see below. I don't know if it is just a lack of ideas or the act of overthinking that keeps me, but it is working. I wonder how people can tell stories so flawlessly sometimes. Standing next to someone building a picture effortlessly for someone else to enjoy in the moment. I want to hear more stroies from people. Sitting at a small unknown coffee shop listening, laughing, aligning with the weaver of tales. I need more of that. Hmmm....

I am off good night.

-jairo

Thought of the Morning

I feel as if no one cares.